I am

sorry I never got to say goodbye to you. I am sorry that "I'm sorry" will never be enough to justify me. I have troubles doing that. It's been so long and I hope that it won't be much longer before you forget everything, so that all that stays in your heart is a little warmth when you remember my name.

I want you to know that I'll never forget you and everything that we shared, everything that you've taught me, everything that you showed me, and every moment you made me smile and opened my eyes to something I have never felt before I met you..
I will probably name my daughter Flo :]

Nevermind the T-shirt, just keep that page from my diary, even if it's in the darkest corner of your closet, because it's a piece of my heart that I will never get back.. one of many, unfortunately.

I hope we'll meet again. Ooops, the irony. I hope we'll meet. I really do, sometime from now, when everything finally works out for you and you're a stronger man. I wish you all the best, because you deserve it.

"And my heart,
burnt
for you.."

And now,

I just pray to God, that you don't take away that last thing that I have, that one "piece" of you that you're completely unaware of, but is enough for me to get by and have my well bloody deserved peace.

I have to break down all the corners of the world.
Don't heed this praise on me, I know I don't deserve it.

Maybe,

it is better this way. maybe that`s what im trying to convince myself of, to justify. justify what? fuck, i don't even know. my actions. your actions. our actions. our reactions. whatever else comes our ways, no matter how much longer this show goes on. in the end --> i am just waiting for that day, years from now, when we'll meet. till you smile at me and i smile back. we don't have to talk, just put your arms around me in a tight grip like you always used to, and give me myself back.